What the hell..so men have an extra chromosone that make them assholes?

First thing this morning, I get a call from my daughters friend who says "we have issues and you need to get over here right away". So, I crawl out of bed, go over to my daughters house to find a cop car in the driveway, her boyfriend and a friend in the garage, and my kid crying. She then shows me that her boyfriend (who I never liked) has totally trashed her house. He broke windows, glass top coffee table, punched a hole in the wall, broke beds....etc because he was jealous. He left her tons of threats on her cell phone from the night before. Long story short, I stayed there all day, cleaned up all the glass, re-arranged and totally redecorated her bedroom and her living room (trying to make it a new place for her - and where she wouldn't have to clean up his nasty mess). I hate seeing my baby "broken". That son of a bitch had no right to treat my daughter that way, regardless of alcohol involved or not (the alcohol just intensified the way he really is) and says he did it because he was a guy in love. I told him that if he loved a person, that you don't show it by trashing her home, by threatening her life and her friends life, and his own life. He won't give her back the car that was her Paka's because he is using it as a weapon against her ( but does say he'll sell it to her for $4000). I just don't get how this could turn into something like this. Why do guys think that they can act like an immature creep and we would still love them? Why do men think that if they swear, get drunk, smash things, threaten to kill people that we will love them even more????? Its so sick. My daughter is gorgeous. She is so damn beautiful, not only on the outside but inside. She is so smart, loving, caring, funny, sweet, and giving that she doesn't deserve this shit. I try to tell her that she doesn't need anyone to make her life better. She is capable of doing that on her own. She could however find someone to enhance her life. But it needs to be somebody who is mature, caring, loving, giving, will give his life for her and her kids...someone who would do anything for her and her family. This boyfriend she had seems to think that smashing shit, threatening her, taking her car is going to be enough- will make her love him more. Dumb ASS. What the hell do guys think? I'm tired of seeing my daughter broken. From now on I'm going to let her know my thoughts on the guys she sees. I have kept my mouth shut on the creep she married (and divorced) and now this asshole. Well, no more. I'm going to be the mouthy, loud ass, asshole total bitch. No man is ever going to treat one on my kids this way again. I'm going to be the bitch from hell. Do you blame me?

divorce

Why do I find it so easy to have a divorced already planned? My husband was being a total dick tonight for no reason. I didn't want to hear his reason. I just kept planning my life without him. How can it be so easy? Is it that I really don't love him? I hate the way I can tell him I'm going to make money doing murals, and he went on and on and on about how I'm not going to do it for free for a friend of mine, and how she took advantage of me painting for hours without a thank you. He just wouldn't shut up! I wanted to scream at him. I don't know how to stop him from being the biggest jerk! I really do hate him at this point. I am wishing he did have a girlfriend so I could send him to her. I wish I had enough money to leave. I don't like him as a person right now. How can he be this way? I just don't get it? I don't ever bitch at him like that. He just dwelled on my friend, saying she is a user...I hate him.

Wasted?

I am wondering if I married my soulmate...or if I settled for someone who just liked me...and knew I would have babies for him....Am I wasting my time - Have I wasted 15 years?

My friend Ginny just found out that after 17 years her husband has been calling another woman...their cell phone bill went up..way up. He spent 36 hours talking to this woman in a month.

I always pictured myself with a man who would take care of me, love me, support me, let me lean on him and not have me take care of everything. I find myself doing all the "taking care of". I'm sick of it. I find myself wanting to find someone else who will do this....at least for a little while to see what it would be like.

I find myself wondering why people look to people who are not in their circle to talk to. Whether this man had an intimate relationship with this woman is beside the point. Just the fact that he was spending his time calling her and not talking with his own wife makes me wonder.....what the hell are relationships about? I don't want to be with someone who bitches at me all the time, who makes me feel like I do nothing...I work 10 hour days, and do typing on the side for another doctor, I'm the one asking for advances from my paychecks to cover our bills (embarrass myself)....while he does nothing to help. I don't want to do this anymore. I can do better on my own - even if it's living in a craphole. On the other hand, I love the way he is with the girls. He's a great dad, but he leaves all the discipline to me. I'm always the bad guy. I need a fricking MAN. I want him to step up, go to work - work all the hours he can to get us out of this damn mess, help me with the plans we have, not tell the girls I'll take them swimming when I get home for lunch and not taking it into consideration that I already had chores to do on my lunch hour. He told them I would take them swimming when the dog had an appt to get her stitches out from her operation. He just takes it for granted I'll do all the shit work...whatever he can't/won't do. Right now I know it sounds like I don't like him...right now I don't. He pisses me off. He drinks way too much. He is an asshole to me when he does. I don't want it ... and I don't need it and I certainly don't want my girls to grow up with this shit anymore. Is it too late? How the hell do I get out of it? I can't afford financially to get out. What the hell do I do? And do I really want too? Am I just pissed right now? He doesn't even know I am....I feel like I'm going crazy. I hate him...I love him. Which one is more? The hate? I think so. But how can I just throw away all these years I've invested in him? And how can I put my girls through any stress because I'm not happy? I think I'll just suffer for the next 8 years til the baby is out of school and then start living my own life. If anyone has any better ideas, let me know. I'm open to suggestion.

Too much

I'm sitting here at my computer. Why? I have so much to do, that I don't know where to begin...so here I sit. My list of things to get done today is overwhelming at moments. I am wondering how people are organized to where they have time to do everything. My mind races during the day... I think I think about stuff too much to where I can't concentrate. Does anyone else feel this way or is it just me? I think about my kids a lot, my job, my house, the bills. I think about how I have so much to do that I don't know where to begin, so I just leave the house and go thrift store shopping. I know I would feel better if I would just get things done, but I don't know where to begin. Are there people out there that will make a list for me everyday? I need to be organized. Its driving me nuts. I know I feel a lot better when I have a very productive day..why can't I just do it? I miss my Dad. I miss my son Zach - I wish he would just move back home. I miss my friend Lori. It seems since she left that I've gone into a slump, which isn't like me. I should be over helping my friend paint, helping my Mom plant flowers and clean her basement. I should get my car cleaned and sell it. I should get Lori's package mailed. I should be getting my yard card business advertised and up and going again. I need to go to the school for Sami's graduation and pick the dog up from the vet. I should get off of here and at least get in the shower. I'm going to make a list. Maybe that will help....I'm going to try it...again...maybe it will work today:)